Here we are, 10 days later and still waiting to hear about our return date. If we do not receive our LOI (an official letter of invitation from the Qingdao Government) by the end of Monday (tomorrow here, today in China) we will miss graduation.
I have very conflicted thoughts about all of this, which I may digress on in an upcoming e-mail.
But in the meantime I have been attempting to "Actively Wait".
This year in BSF we studied the life of Moses. This covered the period of time that the Israelites wandered in the desert. At all times they had to be ready to leave on a moments notice. They lived 40 years following the leading of the Cloud/Pillar of Fire. Sometimes they would remain in a place for a day, sometimes months or even years.
I can't imagine.
This living on the edge is starting to get to me. I have used this model (with appropriate planning in place when possible) for our travels this spring, and it has brought me great comfort to rest in the Peace that the Father has us in the right place at the right time. He has over and again confirmed to us that He has a plan.
But as we draw nearer to returning to China, and don't know if it is one week or one month away, I am growing weary.
Does that mean my faith is not strong enough? No wonder the Israelites are known for their complaining.
In the meantime, I am attempting to balance being present in the moment while at the same time preparing for the future. This week we celebrated Lizbeth's 5th birthday (where has the time gone?!-also in a blogpost hopefully to follow with some pictures). I am also helping my parents move, an arduous task as they have lived in their past home for 22 years! But at the same time, I am making shopping lists, to do lists, sending emails, preparing documents, purchasing high quality shoes, researching pollution masks, and the list goes on.
It's hard to live in two places at once. At least after today we will have a better idea of a leave date!
I have very conflicted thoughts about all of this, which I may digress on in an upcoming e-mail.
But in the meantime I have been attempting to "Actively Wait".
This year in BSF we studied the life of Moses. This covered the period of time that the Israelites wandered in the desert. At all times they had to be ready to leave on a moments notice. They lived 40 years following the leading of the Cloud/Pillar of Fire. Sometimes they would remain in a place for a day, sometimes months or even years.
I can't imagine.
This living on the edge is starting to get to me. I have used this model (with appropriate planning in place when possible) for our travels this spring, and it has brought me great comfort to rest in the Peace that the Father has us in the right place at the right time. He has over and again confirmed to us that He has a plan.
But as we draw nearer to returning to China, and don't know if it is one week or one month away, I am growing weary.
Does that mean my faith is not strong enough? No wonder the Israelites are known for their complaining.
In the meantime, I am attempting to balance being present in the moment while at the same time preparing for the future. This week we celebrated Lizbeth's 5th birthday (where has the time gone?!-also in a blogpost hopefully to follow with some pictures). I am also helping my parents move, an arduous task as they have lived in their past home for 22 years! But at the same time, I am making shopping lists, to do lists, sending emails, preparing documents, purchasing high quality shoes, researching pollution masks, and the list goes on.
It's hard to live in two places at once. At least after today we will have a better idea of a leave date!
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